Gosh thank you so much for your lovely response Jazz. I don't mind you responding at all, I love reading your responses, so thank you so much for your caring advice and wishes

(damn where's that kiss smiley, am I blind, lol, anyway big Christmas kiss for you

)
Yes it's been a rotten year but I am hoping that 2014 will be better, I am going to try and block out all the negativity if it continues and make a bigger effort to get into getting everything finished with that book of mine. I already had ideas for a second book marketing the teenage audience with kind of a twilight feel to it but not with vampires (I'm mainly focusing on angels/demons as the stars, lol) Don't know if you have ever read Hush Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick but I want it to have that sort of feel to it. Well I started on that one but I only wrote a page and I already have my characters all figured out, but that's as far as I got with that one. I'm going on holidays for Christmas soon so I am going to try and somehow inspire myself. It's hard to get inspired with this medication and and the negative crap that's happened but I'll try, I don't want to give up and yes I should start doing a few more readings again from time to time.
Last night I had this unusual dream, it was so vivid, it was like the earth became new, like the old was wiped out and all that was left was remains of things but it was like a raw earth, it was frightening and animals were running wild everywhere. I remember walking into this giant shell on a beach, actually there were shells everywhere like they had been washed up after the earth had renewed itself. I walked inside this giant shell and it was so beautiful and colourful and it lead to some kind of shopping mall (gosh I won't go on it gets crazy......) Anyhow the main part that I remember is that I had some kind of ability to fly over everything and at the same time I was singing this beautiful tune, it was so beautiful that I swear it could have been a hit lol if I remembered the whole damn thing, well I woke up and some of the tune was left ringing in my ears so I tried playing it back on my piano and wrote the notes down, even though it's only a bar of it. Anyhow I was flying over all these people, over oceans and mountains and everyone was telling me I was crazy and that I was going to fall and die/have an accident. etc etc. but I still kept going cause the feeling and the colours and the free feeling of it all was amazing. Even though I was surrounded at one point by scary baboons and I chopped off a snake's head at one point, it was one hell of an amazing dream, I woke up with that tune and a feeling of (what the bloody hell was that all about, lol).
Have a go at interpreting that one, lol.
Anyhow, I have over waffled. I am sorry to hear about your family not talking, that's a shame but I am happy to hear that your new place over the water is working really well for you, that's fantastic.
And Star64, we are so sorry to crash your post like this, Jazz may be if you want to respond back to me you can start up a new post out of respect for Star64.
Big hugs, love ya all xoxox