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Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 11, 2012 1:46 am
by Truthseeker
Hi there Chris or Jazz,

I was wondering if any of you could pick up on what I believe could have been a childhood spirit guide of mine. I've been thinking of her now and then and even though sometimes I think it could just have been my childhood imagination in overdrive and any psychologist would laugh and say most kids have make believe friends but I always wondered. Well anyway when I was about 6 or 7 I had an invisible friend called "Maria", she was like my twin, she totally understood me and we would play together every day, I would talk to her like she was actually there, full on conversations. Was she actually a real spirit? Or was it just my childhood imagination as I stated before? I could have sworn once when I woke up in the middle of the night I saw a presence of a 7 year old girl next to me, it was like static electricity and then it disappeared.

Reason why I was thinking of this was because I'm keen to find out about my spirit guides, I haven't really had one that has actually stood out other than my animal spirit guide and my angels, I know I've had ancestors as my guides but I'd like to know if there are others cause I'm just not feeling them at the moment. Sometimes before I go to sleep I ask my guides to come forward and usually I dream of people I don't know at all or I don't remember them when I wake up, perhaps I'll keep meditating. I guess I just want to know if there is a person as my guide who once walked the earth, someone who is not my ancestor, someone neutral.

Since I've been giving readings on this website I can pick things up about total strangers whom I have never met before but trying to pick things up about myself for some reason I just don't seem to get anything. May be someone else can pick something up for me, I'd really appreciate it, it's a little frustrating at times not being able to pick things up for yourself.

Thanks guys :)

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 11, 2012 10:33 am
by jazz
Hi there Chris or Jazz,

I was wondering if any of you could pick up on what I believe could have been a childhood spirit guide of mine. I've been thinking of her now and then and even though sometimes I think it could just have been my childhood imagination in overdrive and any psychologist would laugh and say most kids have make believe friends but I always wondered. Well anyway when I was about 6 or 7 I had an invisible friend called "Maria", she was like my twin, she totally understood me and we would play together every day, I would talk to her like she was actually there, full on conversations. Was she actually a real spirit? Or was it just my childhood imagination as I stated before? I could have sworn once when I woke up in the middle of the night I saw a presence of a 7 year old girl next to me, it was like static electricity and then it disappeared.

Reason why I was thinking of this was because I'm keen to find out about my spirit guides, I haven't really had one that has actually stood out other than my animal spirit guide and my angels, I know I've had ancestors as my guides but I'd like to know if there are others cause I'm just not feeling them at the moment. Sometimes before I go to sleep I ask my guides to come forward and usually I dream of people I don't know at all or I don't remember them when I wake up, perhaps I'll keep meditating. I guess I just want to know if there is a person as my guide who once walked the earth, someone who is not my ancestor, someone neutral.

Since I've been giving readings on this website I can pick things up about total strangers whom I have never met before but trying to pick things up about myself for some reason I just don't seem to get anything. May be someone else can pick something up for me, I'd really appreciate it, it's a little frustrating at times not being able to pick things up for yourself.

Thanks guys :)

Hi Truth seeker :ymhug:

The first thing i was told was in a past life you did have a twin and she passed, this life time she has chosen to be your spiritual helper, she is real and you have a very good connection to her and with her, that is why you feel so close to her she did come to you as a child to introduce herself to you and let you know she is with you and around you with her love :ymhug:

Call upon her if you want to know anything about yourself your guides or any other heavenly help she is your wisdom along with your angels and guides, i ask my son about me or anything i need to know as we have a close bond of love with each other his help along with my guides and angels work very well together as you will find with your spiritual helper maria, i couldnt pick things up about myself until i turned to my son to get the answers i wanted my guides would come through with messages, but not as deep as my son would for me if that makes sense :) Godbless xxx

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 11, 2012 11:39 am
by Truthseeker
Jazz you are a special gem, God bless you, thank you so much for your fast reply, after reading what you told me my eyes welled up with a flood of tears cause that simply explains why I used to feel like a piece was missing in my life since I was a child. I believe what you are saying is true. Sometimes when I feel I will write a very long post I usually type it out first and then copy it into this website. Well before reading your post this is what I wrote before pasting it onto this website.:

After writing this last post I decided before I went to sleep to say a small prayer to the Divine and asked him to send all his spirit guides from the light that are with me to show themselves to me. I tried to focus on my spirit guides and fell asleep in doing so, well it happened and I believe it was real, one very special spirit guide came to me and she was childlike, her name is Ella. Ella also told me her second name but when I woke up I totally forgot her second name, I kept trying to remember it but it just disappeared, it did frustrate me not being able to remember her second name.

In my dream I thought I was still awake in bed trying to fall asleep and then Ella came to me and started to tuck me in, I started to feel her hands on top of my blankets comforting me and then I felt like a little butterfly kiss on top of my ear, it was so sweet and her touch was like a healing touch, I was a little afraid because I thought I was still awake (even though I was actually dreaming) but then I started to talk to her and I thanked her so much for making herself known to me and that I wanted to show my love back so I kissed my fingers to relay my kiss back on her cheek even though I couldn't see her cause the blankets were on top of me, I could just feel her childlike presence, when I put my fingers out to plant that kiss back on her cheek I felt her little lips kiss my fingers too. The feeling was so full of unconditional love. Then I wanted to look at her to see her even though I was still a little afraid (I guess it was the shock) and I pulled the blankets off my head I saw my deceased father in the room and the light was on, he was carrying a rifle over his back and my mother was beside him (I'm not sure why he was carrying a rifle) but then I asked my dad if he could turn the light off because I forgot to and he said to my mother something like “these kids always forget to turn the lights off!” then I noticed Ella beside my bed and she was a small young girl, I think she had pale features and bright eyes with lots of long hair. I remember thinking to myself at that point after seeing my Dad that no one would believe me that he was resurrected and then the dream ended.

Well I do remember Ella answering my questions but my questions were mainly an introduction, me asking her whether she was actually Maria who was with me as a child, I'm not sure whether she told me that was her or not (I can't remember). I'd like to find out now whether Ella was someone from my past life, or is she just a little spirit there for a reason. Her love though sure was comforting and healing, it was just beautiful, just a little taste from the light.


Thank you so much Jazz, Ella may just be my twin who was there as my childhood friend Maria. Her touch was so real in the dream, I'm sure it was actually happening while I was asleep. It is so comforting to know that she is real and she is there. It's weird because the thought did cross my mind, I felt like somehow I did have a twin in one lifetime or another cause I always felt like something was missing and I used to feel alone even around family. I was told by a psychic that my twin flame is coming but I thought of the twin flame as being male in nature but may be it doesn't have to be, may be the twin flame can actually be your twin brother/sister from your past life.

:ymhug: :ymhug: :ymhug: What a breakthrough!!!!!

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 11, 2012 8:57 pm
by jazz
Jazz you are a special gem, God bless you, thank you so much for your fast reply, after reading what you told me my eyes welled up with a flood of tears cause that simply explains why I used to feel like a piece was missing in my life since I was a child. I believe what you are saying is true. Sometimes when I feel I will write a very long post I usually type it out first and then copy it into this website. Well before reading your post this is what I wrote before pasting it onto this website.:

After writing this last post I decided before I went to sleep to say a small prayer to the Divine and asked him to send all his spirit guides from the light that are with me to show themselves to me. I tried to focus on my spirit guides and fell asleep in doing so, well it happened and I believe it was real, one very special spirit guide came to me and she was childlike, her name is Ella. Ella also told me her second name but when I woke up I totally forgot her second name, I kept trying to remember it but it just disappeared, it did frustrate me not being able to remember her second name.

In my dream I thought I was still awake in bed trying to fall asleep and then Ella came to me and started to tuck me in, I started to feel her hands on top of my blankets comforting me and then I felt like a little butterfly kiss on top of my ear, it was so sweet and her touch was like a healing touch, I was a little afraid because I thought I was still awake (even though I was actually dreaming) but then I started to talk to her and I thanked her so much for making herself known to me and that I wanted to show my love back so I kissed my fingers to relay my kiss back on her cheek even though I couldn't see her cause the blankets were on top of me, I could just feel her childlike presence, when I put my fingers out to plant that kiss back on her cheek I felt her little lips kiss my fingers too. The feeling was so full of unconditional love. Then I wanted to look at her to see her even though I was still a little afraid (I guess it was the shock) and I pulled the blankets off my head I saw my deceased father in the room and the light was on, he was carrying a rifle over his back and my mother was beside him (I'm not sure why he was carrying a rifle) but then I asked my dad if he could turn the light off because I forgot to and he said to my mother something like “these kids always forget to turn the lights off!” then I noticed Ella beside my bed and she was a small young girl, I think she had pale features and bright eyes with lots of long hair. I remember thinking to myself at that point after seeing my Dad that no one would believe me that he was resurrected and then the dream ended.

Well I do remember Ella answering my questions but my questions were mainly an introduction, me asking her whether she was actually Maria who was with me as a child, I'm not sure whether she told me that was her or not (I can't remember). I'd like to find out now whether Ella was someone from my past life, or is she just a little spirit there for a reason. Her love though sure was comforting and healing, it was just beautiful, just a little taste from the light.


Thank you so much Jazz, Ella may just be my twin who was there as my childhood friend Maria. Her touch was so real in the dream, I'm sure it was actually happening while I was asleep. It is so comforting to know that she is real and she is there. It's weird because the thought did cross my mind, I felt like somehow I did have a twin in one lifetime or another cause I always felt like something was missing and I used to feel alone even around family. I was told by a psychic that my twin flame is coming but I thought of the twin flame as being male in nature but may be it doesn't have to be, may be the twin flame can actually be your twin brother/sister from your past life.

:ymhug: :ymhug: :ymhug: What a breakthrough!!!!!

Hi truthseeker :) i am glad you could really feel a connection with what came through for you and what a wonderful experience you had so comforting and loving thats is so nice :ymhug: a few days ago when i wasnt very well i felt somone pull the covers over me like a mother would with a child that is uncovered it was so comforting for me i had such a good nights sleep i said thankyou i can feel your love who ever you are and godbless you.

We are very blessed at times with our heavenly help just knowing we arent alone is comforting take care and godbless :ymhug:

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2012 11:09 am
by Chris Roubis
Awww you guys are gonna make me cry dammit.

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2012 8:02 pm
by Truthseeker
Awww you guys are gonna make me cry dammit.
Go on Chris cry, let your feminine side flow....... :D

Ok now I'll be serious, thanks Chris that was a very sweet comment. O:-)

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2012 1:33 pm
by jazz
Awww you guys are gonna make me cry dammit.

We dont meant toooo ;;) :)) :ymhug:

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Mon Jul 02, 2012 10:42 pm
by Truthseeker
Hi there Jazz,

I was hoping if you could shed a bit more on this, I need confirmation as to whether this is correct as I am not 100% sure as to whether what I was getting was real or was it my own thoughts adding to it, anyway I asked Ella to come forward again to give me more info into my past life with her.

I asked her how she died and she said a shooting accident. Apparently my father in my past life did it by accident and I feel somehow he was wrongly accused for her murder. I feel he was into hunting or something of that nature.

I asked her where we lived and I got London. I also saw an english style cottage with flowers and I saw teapots. I also got an image of a girl in a holly hobby style outfit, may be it was a sign of what they wore in that era. I also thought of holly hobby.

I asked if we had any other siblings if in fact any of them were in this lifetime with me and I got a yes, a brother. I felt from my own feelings that when Ella died I clung to him because he was the only one I trusted as far as a male figure is concerned and I feel he had to hold the fort after my father was taken away. I feel that in that life I had trust issues with men after that, I compared a lot of them to my brother.

I feel that after when I grew up I think and I'm not sure but I believe it's a strong possibility that I may have moved to France. I feel that I worked in some sort of creative arts type industry and that I still carried a lot of anxiety from childhood. I feel that I was also murdered there too. Now since I was a small child I have always had a love for France and I now collect all decorative things french. But on the other hand I also have a phobia with some french songs/some french cabaret and waiters if that makes any sense at all, I know it sounds weird, at the same time I love it and at the same time I'm scared of some of it!!
When I was at school I loved studying french and I came first, and went on to study it further, even though now I don't remember many words, getting old ha ha!!

I was a bit hesitant posting all this but I feel I have to as I want to know if in fact what I did get was real or not. I'm trying not to doubt myself but it's different when you dig for yourself as to when you do a reading for others.

Hope you get anything as confirmation, it would really help.
Thank you.
Truthseeker O:-)

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Wed Jul 04, 2012 9:55 am
by jazz
Hi there Jazz,

I was hoping if you could shed a bit more on this, I need confirmation as to whether this is correct as I am not 100% sure as to whether what I was getting was real or was it my own thoughts adding to it, anyway I asked Ella to come forward again to give me more info into my past life with her.

I asked her how she died and she said a shooting accident. Apparently my father in my past life did it by accident and I feel somehow he was wrongly accused for her murder. I feel he was into hunting or something of that nature.

I asked her where we lived and I got London. I also saw an english style cottage with flowers and I saw teapots. I also got an image of a girl in a holly hobby style outfit, may be it was a sign of what they wore in that era. I also thought of holly hobby.

I asked if we had any other siblings if in fact any of them were in this lifetime with me and I got a yes, a brother. I felt from my own feelings that when Ella died I clung to him because he was the only one I trusted as far as a male figure is concerned and I feel he had to hold the fort after my father was taken away. I feel that in that life I had trust issues with men after that, I compared a lot of them to my brother.

I feel that after when I grew up I think and I'm not sure but I believe it's a strong possibility that I may have moved to France. I feel that I worked in some sort of creative arts type industry and that I still carried a lot of anxiety from childhood. I feel that I was also murdered there too. Now since I was a small child I have always had a love for France and I now collect all decorative things french. But on the other hand I also have a phobia with some french songs/some french cabaret and waiters if that makes any sense at all, I know it sounds weird, at the same time I love it and at the same time I'm scared of some of it!!
When I was at school I loved studying french and I came first, and went on to study it further, even though now I don't remember many words, getting old ha ha!!

I was a bit hesitant posting all this but I feel I have to as I want to know if in fact what I did get was real or not. I'm trying not to doubt myself but it's different when you dig for yourself as to when you do a reading for others.

Hope you get anything as confirmation, it would really help.
Thank you.
Truthseeker O:-)

Hi there truthseeker :ymhug:
Wow that was incrediable what you recieved through , it was all given to you to help you and to trust in your connection with your guides and spiritual helpers, i go through the same when i ask for myself but shouldnt, i should know by now what is real and what are my thoughts and there is a difference, when i meditate and ask for my guides and spiritual helper my son to come forward with any information that i need that is important to me i know i can trust them fully to give me that information so you need to do the same. :) i like all kinds of things chinese, japanese, native american indians, goodness gracious me indians, i have been nomadic, probably why i like to stay at home now :)) egyptian stuff, all these things i like are part memories of my past lives, i like whoppe goldberg because i have been a negro female healer
in a past life i like english things too as i was born in england i love snow,warm open fire places , we can have certain tastes for food but dont know why or attracted to certain objects we see in shops or antique places or any where when we are out and about just little bits of our past lives pop in that we are not always aware of, my daughter loves boots and fur things she was a russian princess in a past life , but also has tastes of other things like country things and decorations that country houses have, her taste for food is different from mine too she loves hot spicy stuff , so parts of her past lives come through with the things she is attracted to it happens to us all but not all of us are aware....hope that has helped :ymhug:

Re: Need help with a spirit guide question

Posted: Wed Jul 04, 2012 10:32 pm
by Truthseeker
Thanks for your reply Jazz.

Yes I am 100% certain that Ella was shot by accident as that came before I could even have time to start thinking my own thoughts, it was a clairaudient message in my mind. London was a clairaudient message, the cottage house, teapots etc. came as a vision. The rest of it though was me asking my spiritual guides/helpers/angels to give me more but I didn't get clairaudient messages or clairvoyant visions, the rest came as strong feelings, me just piecing things together like glue and they just seemed to make sense that's why I'm not 100% sure on the rest on whether they are just my own thoughts just trying to create a story from my own feelings. But I do have this strong feeling that won't go away that I was involved in a french cabaret (doing what I have no idea but I feel it's something creative to do with the cabaret whether it was a musician, costume designer even a can can dancer, I know it sounds crazy) but I feel a quirky phobia with that sort of era, I'm often getting a vision of a french cabaret nightclub with waiters, sleazy mobsters, guns and that french music they used to play which doesn't sit well with me it sounds quite haunting, even mime artists and in a very scary way it frightens me, I feel something happened there, somehow may be I may have been killed by accident too or someone took advantage of me, I don't know, it's just what I feel, when I feel those feelings I feel like a bit of humiliation comes though like someone wanted to humiliate me there (very very weird). I did go to France not long ago and it did feel like it was my second home in some strange way, never been to London though, was very close to going but didn't, definately want to do that one day!

Past lives intrigue me because it may give us clues as to why we have certain phobias in our present life that we can't explain, phobias that happen for no apparent reason. I feel I brought some of those phobias from my past life into this current one, I won't go into detail about that one, also some unresolved karma too.

I guess I just have to keep paying attention to those gaps between the thoughts as to not get the two confused like you said on how you know the difference between your thoughts and what comes through from spirit, I have to work on that I think.

I read on someone's post you replied with having over 35 past lives, oh gosh how did you find that out, did you go and see someone for that?? You must have a lot of interesting stories to tell!!

Yeh Woopi is a classic, love her in Sister Act, total scream!! :)) :))

:ymhug: