I don't know how I feel about my job - for the most part, it's interesting and I enjoy it. But there are people here who push my buttons and question everything I do - my manager questions what I do, she questions what I have been told by the director of the company. I am barely holding onto this job and it's frustrating to know that I am stuffing up nearly all the time.
This can't be all there is for me. Am I in a never ending circle of jobs where I am not good enough, or I can't live up to everyone's expectations of me. I can't afford to not have this job, but sometimes I feel so lost.
This job is a challenge for me and that is one thing I love about it. But with everything going wrong at the moment, I am constantly coming to work not knowing how long I will last.
Sometimes I think about changing my career altogether, but we need money coming into the house and as you know, Greg doesn't earn enough.
I feel like a failure!!