You will be fine
however it turns out, now is only now it is not the future and all the many wonderful new and exciting exciting things waiting up ahead for you,we will meet many along our journey here on this Earth plane that will come into our lives as potential friends, lovers, loves, partners even marriages that will work out and sadly some will not, it is all part of our learning here to experience many different aspects of r/ships and the people who we choose to bring into our lives to learn teach and grow from for our higher selves and for the growth of our soul.
Some will meet their soul mate early in life, midlife or later life depending on how it is meant to be in their chosen destiny.
We have karmic learning lesson r/ships which I have written about and have posted on this site to help those understand better why certain r/ships they have don't work out.
And of course some will choose to want to be on their own living life to how they want to be and being happy with that it all depends on what we have chosen and how we have chosen to be before we came here.
Some of us will have harder or easier lessons to learn from r/ships I didn't know when I was younger what r/ships were all about so I stumbled through like a lot of people not knowing why or what was happening to me when all I ever wanted was to love a person be kind to them and be loved back I was in for a huge shock/shocks with r/ships and I didn't know until my more mature years I had spiritual gifts to use but that's another story..as physical learning go hand in hand with our spiritual learning and growth we learn and teach, teach and learn throughout life.
I myself over many years (I am a dinosaur in age) have had to learn many lessons some of which have been very hard, disappointing, abusive, heart breaking and very hurtful but at the same time necessary for me to learn all the valuable wisdom I have learned from those experiences to make me the person I am now and so I can pass on any valuable insights and guidance I have to offer to others from those experiences so others have a better understanding of Karmic learning lessons and Soul Mate meetings and love as there is a difference....
Any r/ship, friendship, marriage will come as far as it is meant to for what ever reason when that ends so does the lesson, meaning we have come as far as we can with that person we have chosen to have that experience with and it is time to move on taking with us any valuable knowledge, wisdom and learning we have learned with us into the future so we get better and better at making wiser choices for ourselves when we do meet new people that we bring into our lives as potential partners, knowing what we really want for ourselves with a person we meet and how we want to be with a person that allows us each to be an individual.
I feel for you that you need to be comfortable with how you want to be and that's a good thing, we all need to just be ourselves I see you with a person who really understands what you are about because on some level that need is attracting the same energy to blend in and be as one:) on a soul level..
You have a good heart and go out of your way to please, and we need that back too one thing I did learn for myself is that I wasn't allowing myself to receive any love back because I didn't have enough self worth (something I had to learn) and thought that a r/ship was all about just pleasing some one else but not being happy yourself.
Already you have learnt that communication is important in a r/ship if you don't speak up and voice what is troubling you then others don't know either that's another lesson I learned to speak my truth and to stand in my truth.
You have much to look forward to in the future, so don't worry about r/ships they happen anyway and in the way they are meant to happen for you, just enjoy everything about life that makes you happy and gives you joy.
Keep a journal of your experiences and what you have learned from those experiences it is amazing what we do learn if we want to.
Learn to trust your gut feelings they are your soul truth, the truth that tells you what is real and what isn't.
Divine timing brings us what we are meant to have in our lives it is all planned out for us according to our chosen destiny:)
We have a lot of unseen help and love around us all the time so we are never alone even in our darkest times to guide us through our journey here on this Earth plane, we have Gods Divine light and love, our spirit guides, our pets, Angels,and Spiritual helpers (any loved one in spirit) it is comforting to know we are always looked after and loved.