Hi Stella,
I know it is hard at times to keep the faith I have given up many times during my lifetime with certain things that have challenged me only because it all got too much for me emotionally and I allowed it to overtake any bit of hope I had of things ever getting better for me or working out for me.
It is in our darkest times of despair we are helped and our prayers are answered, only we don't always know that or see that or feel any help has been offered to us, it is what we don't see that comes along to surprise us in the most unusual ways, events and situations that lead up to things coming good and working out for us when we gave up all hope.
Please try to meditate, it will help to calm your mind, body and soul.
I feel this year is a year for you to totally relax and bring in much needed peace and harmony within your being, I did some dowsing
I do not take it as being a 100% accurate as all things happen in Divine timing but the year 2017 showed as being of some significance to you as I feel things need to calm down so you feel that lovely inner peace and positive energy around you, working with you and within your being, it does make a big difference when we can allow ourselves to change our energy levels and our belief patterns if we get stuck in the same old negative belief pattern of "Nothing is going to work out for me" then it wont, but turn that around and say "I have faith and believe everything will turn out alright for me" then feel the difference it makes within your being.
Please keep the faith in God he works in wonderful and mysterious ways for us he loves us and wants us to be happy and have everything we are deserving of in life but we must do our part too believing and having faith in him and his love for us go hand in hand
Faith uplifts our energy which inturn attracts positive experiences for us.
Blessings jazz.